Kayla- You Seriously Want to Know about Me?

That's me! ^^^^

So, I've never been the best at these types of things. Bios are just not my thing. At all. When I say at all, I don't mean,"Oh, they just make me feel uncomfortable." No, I mean,"I hate them. If there is anything I hate more than doing that it is listening to country music. Bleh." Which, that is just so ironic in so many ways, because I live in Tennessee near Nashville. And in case you don't know, Nashville, Tennessee is the place where country music was born. Like literally. I think that two country hicks got together and their baby was born in Nashville. I wouldn't be surprised since if you've ever been to Nashville you know that it is the weirdest place. Everything happens here. Oh wait, I'm not here to rant about Nashville am I? Well crap, I had so much to say too. Maybe, I'll write about it later. Oh, the joy.

Back to me now. So, my name is Kayla. It means keeper of the keys which is just totally ironic because I always lose them! I am 13 years old, I know young huh? Well shut up. Just cause I'm young doesn't mean I'm immature. I am currently in the 9th grade, but I'm home-schooled and smart. My plan is to finish all four years of high school in half the time which means I take double the amount of classes that regular people get. It's not that easy, but I've always been good in school. Yes, I have glasses. Yes, I have braces. Feel free to call me a nerd all you want, I don't really care. I shall lose my glasses soon, but my braces will be there till August of 2011. I am counting down the days. I've been told I'm an awesome person to hang around with as long as you're on my good side. That's only because I'm sarcastic and just a tad bit mean though, but I'm usually really nice unless you hurt one of my friends or something. I don't like people to mess with my friends.

I love to write. I know, I know all of you love to write, and some of you are probably better than me. But I seriously love to write. I will spend all freaking day on the computer if I have a story stuck in my head that I just need to write down. Sometimes it's for the better, sometimes it's for the worse.

I also love photography. I love seeing the beauty in things that others can't. Trees are my favorite things to take pictures of. They are just always so strong that I feel that their beauty surpasses all the others. Candids are also one of my favorites things to take. When you take them you are capturing a moment that wasn't posed. It was a real, true actual moment that will have a place in your heart. You see the actual emotions sketched on their faces. You see what they were actually thinking and doing at that point. You don't see their posed lives, you see their actual ones. And I've always loved actual to posed.

I have a disorder. Well really I have many because I'm kinda eccentric. I got it from my mother though who is as eccentric as they come without getting sent to an institution, though I've had some distant relatives sent before. The main thing that I have is Social Anxiety Disorder, or what I like to call SAD. If you google it, it tells you that it is an anxiety disorder that causes the person ,or who I like to call victim, to have an excessive and unreasonable fear of social situations. In short, SAD sucks. For me, I wake up every morning feeling nauseous. You know when you're sick and you feel yourself getting sick? I feel that almost all day till I finally go to sleep. It never stops. Ever had that butterfly feeling in your stomach? Multiply that by a billion, then multiply it again. It is one of the worst feelings ever, and what's worse is that it can lead to Agoraphobia. Which is just a big word that means that you have a fear of leaving you house. I really hope that my SAD never evaluates to that, but if it does, God help me.

I change my hair color a lot. When I say a lot I mean that ever since I was 11 I have been a redhead, brunette, blonde, really blonde, really dark brown, bright red, and every color in between. I can't even remember what I look like with my original hair color anymore. Though I do know that it is a dirty blonde, if you happened to be curious. Don't tell me that I will become bald, because my mom has been doing this a lot longer than I have, and she's perfectly okay.

I love guys. I love hanging out with them and talking to them. I just love them. No, I'm not a slut. Far from it actually. I kinda don't like girls. Don't get all mad at me, girls! It's just that we are very annoying creatures with all our gossip and going behind backs. It annoys me which is why i surround myself with way more guys than girls. I have lots of guy friends, and I have had lots of boyfriends in the past. My best friends are guys. You guys may be absolutely horrible and perverted sometimes, but I love you guys.

This 1,000 words that we've been limited kinda sucks. I mean, I don't know that much about myself for there to be 1,000 words for me to use. I'm actually thinking of cheating and undoing all the contractions to make them two separate words. Would that be evil? Yes, then well just call me Dr. Evil!

I love movies. Movies and books, I love. But I try not to see movies on books I've read because I'm always disappointed. Is it just me? Does anyone else feel the need to bash the directors head in with a rock because of what he has done to the books I love? I wonder if the books, after they watch the movies, feel violated and used. Because I feel that for them. After watching a movie that was based on one of my favorite books I feel like someone just violated me or something. I also always wonder if the people even actually read the book because sometimes it's just so off topic that it's scary. I wonder if they even read the book or just got like a summary on it then shot the movie. If so, they need to be shot. Sorry, if that was kind of aggressive. I get that way when you violate my books and I.

I hate it when people misspell things. It bothers the heck out of me. I always correct it in my head and when I'm in a bad mood I may even confront you on it and be all,"Hey! You misspelled that freaking word! A first grader could get it right, so can you!" So texting annoys me a little because I swear if texting had spelling tests half the people in the world would fail. I wouldn't though, I always spell out the words correctly, because as we've covered before I'm eccentric. I also always get a thrill when I double check with spell check and it says that they found no errors. I just love that, I feel awesome after I see it. It's the little things in life that I love.

Since I've completed the 1,000 word minimum, I am now going to stop writing about myself. I hope that this gave you a little insight of the eccentric person that is me, Kayla. I hope that we can all be friends, and that we can all enjoy and learn from each other's writing. I'm looking forward to this.

Love the most eccentric person of them all,
  Kayla.

Meghan - Attachment, addiction and a bunch of other things

Yeah , I just posted my bio. I'm quite happy with it. But attachment is bugging me, I feel like I do the wrong thing most of the time . You say I'm not suppose to get attached , what do I do get attached. Pretty much enough where I'm fighting to stay here . To stay here to be with you , even thought I know I can't . I want to so bad, I wanna just say that I fell for you . Why did I? I don't reallly know , I would love if you filled me in on that? But I'm not talking about you right now . So goodbye :)

Attachment to a pair of converse? Yes, I dont big time. And these arent a nice pair. These are by far the nastest thing you have ever seen. The are black high tops that were my brothers and then I found them cleaning out his closet one day and thats the day I fell in love with them . I bought rainbow laces from them next :) and I just wore and wore and wore and wore these shoes. Like the have a hoe in the side from over wear and writing all them . But attachment to these shoes. Well, When ever I need to think about anything just put them on and go walking. I think I'm gonna wear them soon cause I miss wearing them. But thats my attachment to converse

Addiction, Well this plays into my ADD. Yes, I am ADD , It ruins in my family. I have this short burst of addiction. Believe me, My mother can tell you all about al the things I've done but quit. Well, Texting hasn't quit. Just look at my phone bill, But its not only me. More of this addiction is writing. I feel a need to write in my head I cointastly have something going if I cant get a piece of paper. But my best things are written when I'm not suppose to be writing , Like right now for example. I should be sleeping, But really who needs sleep. Umm , I do but shhh dont tell cause well I have work tomorrow. Sleep would not be addiction for a record. What really is addiction. Yu know how webster says addiction is "

the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, " It could be replaced with the words : dependence, habit, problem. So does that make writing a problem. uh ohh. Well, Clearly Mr webster you don't know anything? Or do you.

Maybe Webseter knows something but I think look at the situation . As I feel that I mature, Well mature sometimes, I have less of a "addicition" or a "attachment" to something but maybe a passion or a love.

My love write now, writing end of story and one tree hill quotes :)

Love

Meghan

P.s I think this was meaningless

Kiara- Who i am.

"Maybe we, why dont we sit here for half an hour. We'll speak of what a waste i am"-Underoath.

My names Kiara. Where do i start at explaining who i am? I guess age is a good start. Im 14 born October 17, 1995. To me age is only a number, i dont think it should be used to base your maturity level. Im actually really mature for my age, I've been through alot in only 14 years of living and i think that gives me a different outlook on life.

Im a pessimist. I usually only look at the glass half empty. Put me in a situation and i can tell you alot of negative things that could become of it. Im also a dreamer, you can see how these two things might not be so great together. "I think of six impossible things before breakfast"-Alice in Wonderland. My imagination is very broad, i think of the weirdest things at the strangest of times, but thats something i like about my mind. Imagination also adds to personality, and without personality, everything just becomes very dull. I like to make jokes out of everything, my favorite line is thats what she said, i mean who doesnt like to laugh? :]

I have a passion for music. I like everything besides country. I enjoy alternative, rock, hardcore, post-hardcore, screamo, alittle bit of metal and rap. I listen to music everyday, theres never a time where music hasnt helped me feel better, no matter what song it was. My current favorite bands are Silverstein, A Day To Remember, We Came As Romans, Asking Alexandria, and Underoath. Im hoping to one day learn to play guitar and drums. Writing has also been a big part of my life, i express my feelings through music and writing, and i like helping people that are having the same problem i am or a problem that ive experienced, it always makes my day to put a smile on someones face.

I must sound like i have a really boring life, but let me spice it up and tell you that im bisexual. I dont like people that judge before they really get to know someone. I've gotten alot of crap for this but if you have a problem with it i cant change your mind and i dont let opinions get to me. Im in a long distance relationship, if you wanted to know. I dont think very highly of myself, my self esteem is at 0 but i live my life the way i want to and i dont think i should be judged for that. :]

Im always up for trying new things, i doubt this is even close to 1000 words but i was never good at bios and i probably will never will be but trying always helps.

Check out my tumblr

http://kiarawwr.tumblr.com/

My twitter

http://twitter.com/kiarawwr

Facebook

http://www.facebook.com/kiara.brindisi

Hope this didnt totally fail.

:)

Meghan - What can I say about me?

I'm not good at writing these, at all. I'm not good at explaining myself. So brace your self. One of my favorite writers once wrote "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." So, Who am I trying to create?

I'm trying to create a writer. Words have always been my thing, well to me. I've had alot of time to wrtite what I feel. Right now, I'm feeling stumped. I just don't know what to write about me.I feel like it should just spill out when it really isn't, This sucks.

Well, I could tell you all these lies and stuff to make me seem like I really am some great person. But I'm not. I'm probably one of the averager people you met. I'm meghan, I'm 15 and I have writers block currently.

I'm a dancer , but not hip hop or jazz or whatever you can think of thats not ballet. I like ballet , I love ballet . My love grew when I quit to spend time with a guy cause I didn't think I loved dance. Didn't think I was a quiter but I was. So, here I am without dance intill august. What makes me love dance? Have you ever had that feeling where everything is fine? I get that feeling with dance , It just me and whatever I'm doing. My by far favorite feeling cause I have a lot going on with me most of the time. What would I love about dance? Just the face you can always better your self. There is not limint to how good you can get if you try. Thats what makes me love dance. I love dance enough to quit it for soccer. Soccer was a great sport but not worth it cause i want to dance. :)

I have bad knees. This brings such a point cause I will probably complain about them . So what makes them bad, Well the fact I've spent most of my 15 years doing something that included them . No, not sex cause you know thats not really worth it unless your looking to have kids or your just a plain whore who wants sex. I mean by doing something with them, dancing , playing soccer , running , walking , jumping. I had a active childhood. Still am active , Very active which poses this probably sometimes.

I'm a dreamer, I know where I get that from. My lovely mother who through everything she has seen a sliver lining to the darkest clouds. There is something that can push me throught the days when I don't think I can. Maybe, If you saw my mother and how she handles things you would be too.

I'm a mac. I'm a living breathing mac user . I don't think it can get worse with anyone but me. So, here's how I become a mac user. Well, way back when the world was still round? Oh it is round can't say that huh? Well, Way back when I was a wee lass Mac invested in a study to test kids on there computers . And poor guy when he told my mother that he wanted to put his two year old daughter in a orange mac desktop. Do you remember those orange computers , I do cause I always wanted a pink one . Not stupid orange. But here it stood for awhile, I dont how long? 4th grade maybe? My mother swears it his fault I fed the computer. BUt really , You give me a idea and i run with it. So how did I fed this computer of mine. Oatmeal on my cd and popped it in. Why did i? well cause when we got stuck on game we had a cup to flipp over . So , little me figured it had a cup it could have food. Umm , no I was very wrong. And my mother wasn't very happy with me. But that was computer number one. Laptop number one turned into a monster computer cause i didnt wanna move to a macbook . Then I moved from a white macbook to my sliver baby I have now. And thats how I'm a mac. And Apple store agrees . When I'm 18 I can be a apple genus cause well they love me cause I can help them out too.

My hands hurt

I'm a reader. I have been for awhile now. I mean a four year old reading was my life story but what can a book offer that a movie can't? The fact that you can immerse yourself into this new world? yeah, i would live for that anytime. ANYTIME. I don't have a favorite book or author but boyy nicholas sparks gets me everytime. So go read one of his books.

So shaw wrote "there are two tragedies in life, one is to lose your hearts desire, the other is to gain it" If anything, I've learned that this year. I know I've learned a lot cause I know I've gone as a person. I don't know how to explain but getting my heart riped out and put back really did that to me. But it hasn't been only a year but I've learned a lot about happiness.Happiness is hard to come by, I would know I'm a mood swinging time of person. But the happiness I feel when I write is sometimes not there. I write from the heart and sometimes my heart needs quote to back them up . A lot of the time it can be qutoes. But what I'm saying is it hurts that I can't talk about the one person who makes me happy cause it isn't just one person. Maybe it isn't even a person who makes you truely happy . But I don't know

I'm glad you got to know me alittle better by reading this. So I dare you to join me on this blogging journey with me , I'm using this blog to read others and voice to really find my self. Find who I want to be . Find want makes me really happy. Find what makes me so Afriad of love.

With Love ,

Meggiemayy

About Our Voices Aren't silent [PLEASE READ]

Hi,

So, I'm Meghan. Yeah, I'm a teenager like you, wanna get down to the dirt? I'm 15 as of may 31st. It was a great birthday if you ask me. But that's not the point about this. I was recently rejected from writing for someone and when I got the email I saw I wasnt the only one. Over 100 people applied and only 7 got it. Well, I'm not one of the seven as i said.

But what if there was a place for all the rejecties to write? So that's what I started and maybe other people will come and write on it .

Heres what you need to do.

- One, Post at least once a month if you can't please get someone or something to post. But don't think I'm liminting you to at once a month, you can write everyday that month

- Two, Well, Brandon brought a vaild point 1,000 words is a lot . But I feel I would like some nice long post cause It just pointless in my mind to have these short posts. So take aleast 400 words? Sorry to all who pushed 1,000 but I love your posts.

- Three, I don't care what you write about just write something use the format.

- Four, Please as your first post post a bio just write about you kay?

FORMAT:

Name- what your title is

[example - Meghan- Media age]

Always sign off with your name

anything else is free range

Hope you all feel like joining,

Meghan

itsmeggiemayy@aol.com